I don't think life ends up the way we think it should. One day we suddenly look back in shock or awe and the realization hits us. In all fairness though, how we thought it should be has changed over the years.
As an infant our dreams of the future reach as far as the next feeding or diaper change. Then in a few years we have aspirations to be fireman or princess. In the teenage years our only dream is to prove we know it all....lol...ok not really. Teens are dreaming of how they will look with all the body changes happening, and will they ever fit in. Somewhere soon after we realize we are thinking about our "future", where to go to college, what to study or maybe join the workforce. Wait! When did we start thinking like adults? Our 20's does seem to be a big changer. Our future often encompasses another during this period. Love, family, first house & career. Thirties "hey what happened to my 20!" We look to being secure for our family and realize our future is now wrapped up in even more people. Maybe a job change or going back to school. 40's....50's....60's...70's...80's....
See what I mean. Why are we so surprised it didn't turn out how we planned? We were the ones who kept changing the blue prints.
My life has certainly not turned out how I thought it would. I was going to graduate high school, go to college, travel, marry at 25 and have one or two sons at 27. Well, I did graduate high school and go to college. Little bit of travel. No husband. No children.
I could (and have) banged my head wondering what happened, what's wrong with me, but that hasn't changed a thing.
I have had a good life. I'm going to continue to have a good life. How can I say that after telling you what I haven't got? I can because I choose to see the truth, to see the blessings, to see the happy times, to see all that I have and have done.
We are human. We are going to think on what we expected or planned, we can't help ourselves. BUT, don't wreck your journey into the future looking in a mirror at your past.
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